Questioning??

“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:9

I believe the Lord is holy, just, loving and all-knowing, but today I am struggling with the question, "Is God fair?" This question comes out of my heart, aching for a good friend. This amazing Godly friend and her sweet husband had to say goodbye to their little girl, way too soon. After caring this precious little girl for 28 weeks and praying for a miracle, through tears they let her go.

So I battle with the question, "Is God fair." In my questioning, I have to cling to the truth of Romans 8:28, "And we know that in ALL THINGS (the good, the bad, the terrible and the triumphant) God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Today as I ache for my friend, I trust that God will be glorified, even in our grief!!

**In honor of Jennifer and Jimmy and their precious Reese

Happy Mother's Day 2011

1st Samuel 1:11, "And she made a vow, saying, “LORD Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a child, then I will give that child to the LORD for all the days of its life!"

For a year and a half of tears, tantrums, prayer and needle pricks I cried out to the Lord for a child. My husband and I married a little bit older in age then some of our other friends so we were not going to wait too long to start a family. After being married for just a few months we began the journey towards parenthood. Since I took 6th grade science at Greenville Middle School and learned about the "birds and the bees", I knew that "A" plus "B" equals "C".

I thought conceiving and having a child would be easy. Little did I know the journey God would take our little family. After a year and a half of much crying, prayers, and modern medicine I became pregnant. When I did, I thought whew the hard part is over. Then ten weeks before my due date, my precious Ava decided to make her entrance into the world. My first glimpse of my little, tiny daughter was through the glass of an incubator. She had all types of tubes, wires and IV's coming out of her two pound body. During the 57 long days that my sweet Ava was in the NICU, God taught me about his faithfulness, grace, mercy and strength. Today I celebrate Mother's Day by being so very thankful for the miracle little girl with whom my mighty, loving, powerful Lord and Savior blessed me!